The Sacred Unraveling
On loosening the threads that were never truly ours, and reweaving a life from authenticity.
There’s been a lot rumbling beneath the surface of my soul recently. Little tugs and whispers that I couldn’t quite decipher, or maybe I wasn’t ready to.
The last few months have been filled with the most blessed and grounding shifts, transitions and openings. I was finally walking a path that felt like the right one. I was “home” in many senses of the word.
But there was still a nudge and pull deeper in my soul…something I couldn’t quite put my finger on. I could sense something - clarity, insight, understanding, an awakening - was orbiting my field, but hadn’t quite landed. It wasn’t ready. *I* wasn’t ready. Not yet. There were still things I needed to SEE (more metaphorically than literally) before it could fully come in.
But I could sense a thread was loosening. An unraveling (the best kind) was percolating in the background.
And then a few days ago - I’ll never forget the moment - that thread was pulled loose. In the most random moment (leaving the grocery store and walking to my car), when I finally saw with clarity what the Universe had been waiting for me to see...the cracks I hadn’t seen before…and then it all landed. (*Flooded* would be a better word to describe the sensation.)
Big questions that required radical honesty with myself finally began to pour through.
So I sat in my car, pausing for a moment and then I said, “Yeah, ok, let’s do this.” Whether that was said to my soul, to the Universe, or both, I tugged at the thread and committed to the unraveling.
And then things started flooding in. Realizations, insight, clarity. It was like a million lightbulbs were going off at once. Puzzle pieces falling into place. It was like I was seeing my life - from childhood until now - clearly for the first time.
Recognizing that some of the things I was doing and wanting to call in, especially around soul purpose and work, were misaligned. Not bad, just inauthentic expressions of me. What I thought I should be doing and how I should be showing up, versus what actually lit me up and what were genuine expressions of my essence.
And since that day when I pulled at that loose thread, I have begun to rapidly - and with the deepest respect, love and grace - unweave the tapestry of life, identity and purpose that I had built so much upon.
And as each new, deep truth comes to the surface, I sit with it, honor it and then pull out that thread even more. It’s a final, deep unraveling of old ways, mindsets, coping mechanisms, needs, limiting beliefs…and so much more. So much needs to be lovingly unweaved from the tapestry, so that I can reweave from a foundation that’s built on authenticity, not wounding.
A foundation built on self-worth, not self-doubt. Self-expression, not self-censorship.
The insights and clarity keep FLOODING IN (like, the stuff that’s coming through is so rich and exciting that I literally have to carry my phone with me at all times so I can record a note or write something down lol)
And as I continue to swim through all of this, the same themes keep resurfacing…authenticity, self-worth, self-expression and purpose. And my gosh, are they getting a makeover in my life.
With all the retrogrades, the ending of this 9-year cycle and the inwardness of the current and upcoming seasons…I can’t think of a more thrilling thing to do than continue this journey inward and greet the depth of insight and abundance that lies not only at the end, but WITHIN the process as well.
How liberating the unraveling can be as we unweave and untangle the identities that weren’t truly ours to begin with. Because what a blessing it is when we can align with our deepest, most authentic self, and let that part of us shine bright in the world.
